LIFEEE!!!

I know she’s not interested in me anymore ever since our fight and I know sooner or later Shes going to start changing and looking forward into new and other guys…I didn’t feel like a boyfriend to her only a person there for her and thts all she wants is a guy there to be there for her and not me I know her mind will change and maybe I should change too. I’ll start looking other people to as well then…

Maybe now memories will pass and things will change feelings move away doesn’t feel like anything will get better I guess time will tell when it changes and especially can’t do anything right for her not even hang out I just want her happy hard but not impossible…but clueless about everything not. I don’t feel like anything will change. Maybe later on but I guess things are whatever now

Maybe now when things are getting use to things change in the end

lately ive been feeling maybe she doesnt need me anymore and on the other side i still want her..but i want her happy and ive been thinking about how i was treating her before….i just have to realize that i dont make her happy anymore and that i probably do have to let her go, ive been thinking this whole day about it and i know she wouldnt want me back of how she was talking to me…looking back, she made me the happiest guy even though i went through many problems with her it was worth giving up all my friends time with them and just trying to be with her…i just wanted to let her know that i love her with alll my heart….so if she does want me back i will try harder to make her happy and feel special…i guess now i have to try to get my friends back since no one talks to me anymore except for athena :) shes always there when i need someone to talk to….i just hope the next guy she brings into her life will treat her better then i ever did :) i just going to say that shes worth being with and i regret all the words ive said to her and i wish i never said those words…but i guess now feelings change from each side….i also know that you dont miss me at all when i saw you yesterday and im sorry for wasting your time…i just want to say that I love you marygrace anne dogoldogol forever and ever no matter what till the end together forever<3 :) muah! i hope we will have we still stay together

so i guess today was a good day haha nah its hot…i felt so light headed yesterday and today but idk when its going to end :( well no one else talks to me anymore i try to look through my phone to talk to but only a couple people talk to me which is fine i mean its better then nothing…ive been listening to alot of music lately :D i just hope my junior year ill have alot of fun :) pssh im only doing this blog is because im so bored…just hoping it will get better but either way ill try to appreciate whatever comes my way whether i lose or gain something